CARNIVAL

god i would kill for the world to stop
turning
not because i'm happy but because i don't ever want
to be sad
they say it's lonely at the top
i'm learning
and it feels as though the two of us might just be lonely enough

children everywhere, making sounds of planes
crashing
carousels of teenage pumpkins waving hands to friends
passing by
there are songs of the lonely, songs of
the weak
and it feels as though the two of us might just be lonely enough

people listen to the words but never quite understand
the yearning
the t-shirt i’m wearing says i’m glad
to be alive
the hell you are, they say, the hell
i am
and it feels as though the two of us might just be lively enough

boys are funny when they sing, sounds like their heart
is burning
girls make me smile with their words so sweet and
simple
their voices bounce off the edges of
my ears
and it feels as though the two of them might just be noisy enough

to be here, to be here

god i would kill for the world to stop
turning